At first, panic and lots of uncertainty on how things were changing and if we would be completely locked down. But now I mostly feel sad and numb.
I feel much more motivated to get my life back on a course that I feel is productive. This year has really shown me how fragile everything is, and I really want to go out and help change things next time something happens.
Often, and I believe it is a coping mechanism. I guess I’m very unhappy with a lot of things in my life, things I can change and not, and being someone else for a while is nice, sometimes I need a break.
I think I’d like to be in a place high up in the alps. Maybe on some land with green fields and sheep and a stream bubbling through it all. Somewhere quiet where I can sit at a large window and look out to mountains and mist.